Hope you enjoyed your time with your friend Eliza. Just a thought; I wonder if she would be open to you joining her for her Bali leg of the journey? I know you mentioned you would like to go there with someone.
I think for all of us we are fighting a "dragon". Some days we are victorious in keeping the dragon at bay but others it creeps in through the dark. While some times it is breathing down our necks ready to finish us off. It is a constant battle with the dragon and you can never take your eye off him or he will win.
There is always a SMILE
in your day,
you just need to find it!