lubbing5cherubs created the topic: Cranky as a meat ant
HI I am so cranky right now. My specialist told me that i reherniated my disc. Well we decided on the fact that i try 3 months of physio to try and rebuild my dropped foot. Anyway i just read the referral i am so cranky. he wrote that : “Disectomy and formanitomy at l3/l4, responded well to surgery, Reassessed with MRI everything looks normal,think a physical rehash is in order”
I am so pissed excuse my language but i know for a fact as my own gp that i use to work for as the cleaner she showed me my MRI report, she found that my nerve is being moderately compressed by my scar tissue. She believes this caused my foot to drop and when i told her the nuero surgeon said there was nothing on the scan to indicate my pain she literally laughed out loud. Then yesterday after my next mri he tells me there is a herniated disc again but not enough to indicate surgery again. So he tells me one thing and write another. I don’t know what to do right at the moment I feel very hurt. I think he looked at my size and decided that was the problem. I am so angry and hurt. Like most of this weight come on from sitting around with my back and the pills i taken to try and get help. The last 2 visit he made me leave there feeling like i am making up the pain and i not. This man also ask question in a way that trips you up, like he ask me have i seen improvement at first consult so he got that i had some pain free days. I have never had a pain free day since 10th feb last year. I give anything to have a fully pain free day. I am just numb and hurt and don’t know who to turn to. I feel i am being lied to and alone.
thanks anyway for letting me cry and get this vent off my chest