I AM WITH YOU SOME NIGHTS THE DREAMS ALMOST FEEL REAL .
I use an iPad to see all messages as sitting at a computer is impossible I move from place to place in the house to spend usage time between standing,sitting and laying I can keep myself sane otherwise the dog is nipping my heels Wednesday was my worse day since for ages.
I received a letter from the Affairs dept, and they have deemed that incap is not payable as my last position restructured his business and made me redundant and I haven't looked for work.
So I felt fornicated and I suppose I'd had enough and just wanted out but I'm still here because my third son got married on Thursday which means they are all married my job here is done and dusted .
as long as I wake up alive I'm happy
Because it could be worse
Hi Johnno, sorry to here you had a bad day.
But on the other hand so glad your sons wedding went well.
That's all we wish for , happy kids.
I too gave up computer , and I gave iPad to my mum, I just have iPhone now, as it's not as heavy and easy to use without neck/ back strain.
Chin up hold onto a chair and kick that black dog through the wall.
I am so sorry you are having a bad day. Congrats on getting Son number three married. That would have been a big day. I also use the iPad for most things. I still have a laptop, but I use it mostly to put music on my devices. Cannot live without my music.
Very pleased to see you're still here Johnno. How very frustrating and infuriating. But if they can find a loop hole they find it. Just think they are all married, grandkids will be next, if they are so inclined, and that is a whole incredible joy to be had. Or so I am told. I know my nieces all have a wonderful and special relationship with my Mum. Hang in there buddy, there are still good times to be had.
I hear you. Back in the day I was a computer programmer. I have been on DSP now for 15 years (*GASP*) and the thought of being forced back to work is terrifying. It is simply unattainable for me, but it contiues to worry me. All I can say is try to focus on now, and let later on be dealt with then. I mean usually I am a planner, but the added atress won't be helpful to you, in the now.
As for the vivid dreams, oh tell me about it. The nightmares can rack off. I hate waking up heart racing, in a terror and have to,leave the light on to be able to get back to sleep. Or even having to get up to get it out of my head. But a couple of weeks ago I had an extremely vivid sex dream, that involved chocolate sauce. All the fun, with no mess. It was intersting, and not something that happens often, but I'd take them over the nightmares any night. Although,like you I have had few epic dreams, that are like full length feature films, right in your head. Although mine rarely make any sense. So when I read yours above, for some reason everytime I saw the word "battles" I read "batteries"... no idea why, but had to read it a coupld of times for it to,make sense.